Of late..

.. nothing seems to be interesting.

after so much blah.. blah.. on describing what went wrong.. I jotted down some of my options...

these are my options..

1. buy and start reading. some book on mathematics..

2. buy and read novels..

3. get a new comp..

4. go for a long trip... (I like lonely bus rides..)

5. apply for new job

6. apply for phd..

7. kill some one.. ;).. if you have someone in mind let me know.. ;)

8. digg world wide web..

9. eat some ones brain..

10. watch any movie.. :D

well, I tried most of these extensively.. and some could not touch 'cas of obvious reasons. I need something to keep me interested for sustained periods of time.. may be I should dream!!

update: bought a new comp yesterday (3/5)

Fun with Yahoo Mail!!

Well yahoo says.. my name is Cheyenne Smith (TheFairyGirl) . 29 . Female . Orlando, Florida ;)

Remaining details of my profile..

click for bigger one..

I guess, somebody hacked into my yahoo account and changed the details..

ps: by the way, it also says.. "i'm tha best - 157!" ;)

Whats wrong with age??

This is a very simple question to ask. Not so long ago, I used to think what makes people read news papers for such an extended periods of time. What keeps them interested to know about the things which are very loosely related (at least I used to think) to them?

Now things changed. I spend almost 3 to 4 hrs a day on reading just news which includes technology, international politics, terrorism, business, jokes, comics and online gossips. In fact, most of the times it doesn't matter what I'm reading. The only thing that seems to matter is whether I am reading (or killing time) or not?

Just thinking.. whats wrong with age (or whats right with age.) ?? What changes?

Why I hate Amygdala...??

Wikipedia says..

"... the amygdalae perform primary roles in the formation and storage of memories associated with emotional events..."

"The amygdalae also are involved in the modulation of memory consolidation. Following any learning event, the long-term memory for the event is not instantaneously formed. Rather, information regarding the event is slowly assimilated into long-term storage over time (the duration of long-term memory storage can be life-long), a process referred to as memory consolidation, until it reaches a relatively permanent state... "

and

"... emotional arousal following the learning event influences the strength of the subsequent memory for that event. Greater emotional arousal following a learning event enhances a person's retention of that event"

To summarize.. Amygdala is responsible for casting high amplitude emotional arousal into permanent memory!!

This is why I hate it.. ;)

1:51PM On a boring office day..

A: Hey A...

had lunch?
B: yes.. sir.
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A: yeah... chalega...

inkemti sir?

B: let me ask you something..

A: go ahead

B: what do you feel about usage of the word 'love' for a relationship between a boy and girl..

A: it is apt... no issues

B: why do they add.. pure love.. or unconditional love. like adjectives to that.. .??

A: that's all bullshit man... no need of adjectives!!

B: if a boy and girl.. liked each others' company.. and just felt like living together..

then.. does this fit into the def. of love.. ??

A: hey, again definitions vary... it's not the definition that matters...

if we talk about definitions, we should also consider things like rules and regulations of this society and such trash...

B: ok.. let me tell you from where I started.. thinking all these..
a boy and girl..

boy is a kind of rude.. and irresponsible person..

forgetting about the way in which they fell in love..

one fine day.. the idiot met with an accident..

infact.. he drunk and drove..

now.. the girl comes, cries.. and sobs.. to digest the fact that.. he was injured to death..

*she was not bothered about the drink & drive irresponsibility...

**my question is what made her think that way.. ??

A: hmmm... i could see one fundamental point here...

it's those sweet and tender moments that count...

let's stick to this boy and girl concept...

suppose b and g met each other, find each other so compatible and spent some days or weeks or months cherishing each other...
even if they get separated, or get conflicts, there will be some soft corner that's left in both... momentarily, they may get hostile feelings, but in the long run... the soft corner lives longer... this is my argument

what do you say?

B: it is indeed true..

but my question is, why it should be that way.. .;)

A: ha ha... we are human after all...

B: yeah..

A: but, is there any specific case that you have seen, as you have described??

B: not exactly.. some time back..

I started thinking.. about the pampered usage of the word 'love' leading to disastrous decisions.. and all..

A: i think this is where learning by examples will help...

for example, we read many novels, and watch many sensible movies... so, naturally we sort of get what is what... so, our conscious will lead us in a better way, i suppose

even learning by experience helps, but it's too costly to afford... ;-)

B: don't you think some of these media is giving too precious impression on 'love' which is not quite practical.. in most cases.. ??

A: yeah, of course... driving the innocent in wrong direction...

B: yeah.. exactly..

A: see it's a fact that the bad and the illusion spreads faster than the good and the reality

so, the filmmakers and news media are cashing that basic instinct of our nature

if somebody shows a 10th standard boy THE BEAUTIFUL MIND, how far can he understand or even accept it?

whereas if you show him a Chiru's movie, where he kills 10 at a time and flirts two or three, it works

B: so.. on that same note.. what attracts these young minds.. towards love.. ??

A: how young?

like 15-22 years age group?

B: I wouldn't include twenties..

say.. 15 to 17 or 18 where they don't have faintest idea of living together.. !

A: ok... most of those who fall in group are desperate for attention...

and so are the consequences... it's simple...

B: *with exceptions.. though.. ;)

A: yeah, that is why i used ALMOST

and the rest may be genuinely in sync with their inner feelings

B: hmm..
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2:36 PM

A: how do you rate this discussion of ours?

B: suitable for a blog post.. with minor edits.. ;)

A: ha hha...

great

PS: I was thinking to blog about a thing, happened with my friend long back due to this 'precious Love' opinion which took two innocent lives, for a long time.. and finally felt that this conversation would do that job....!!