Killing time.. how?

I, in general, won't be having any plans for my day to day work. I just follow my interests at that very moment. So today.. I started my day by thinking I would complete some of my work (office work). Finally at the end of day... what I achieved is..

New ubuntu release, with a brand new visual theme... and a lot of garbage about ubuntu new technology and some diggs which talk about the funny two letter naming of each ubuntu release.



Then went to fedora, my all time favorite. As fedora launched new f9 recently, the visual appearance of f10 is not there yet. But Red hat show cased new fedora 10 (Cambridge) Alpha release and its new technologies, which includes new rewritten pulse audio sound server architecture to adopt new time based scheduling, a new programming language called Haskell, and more importantly.. a redefined graphical boot process. You can find more info at fedora wiki

I got lost in all these garbage.. and now I'm sitting here and thinking about what is that in the above that made me kill my time with out even thinking about at thing called boredom....

Only thing I can think of... is, unlike every other study where you learn what is there, here with programming you create your own world, your own physics, and your own design. So.. your imagination is at work most of the time unlike in the other cases where your senses work the most to understand what is there....

may be wrong... may be right!!

Math love ;)

I'm just thinking.. is it possible to get into any math school now..?? How about a Ph. D. in IISc math department??

Today..

I hate waiting...

Saturdays.. my dad used to go bazzar to Palakol, a small but good town near to my village. This is a routine for him especially in the first week of every month. He used to do shopping for monthly groceries, weekly vegetables and other supplies. What does this has to do with my waiting..

There were a couple of occasions when I used to accompany him mostly out of boredom. He usually stops a motor mechanic shop and leave me there and used to go for shopping. I was at an age of 8 or 9..

An unknown place unknown people.. I used to look at the way he went, for hours.. I hated that..

Did things changed with my age.. no..

Why am I telling all these garbage now.. ?? Anyways... this reminds me so many connected incidents..

I got a comment recently.. I live in the past more... I guess I do. But the irony is my memory is so poor that I can't keep track of my keys properly but here, the same works in a different way.

What else.. I couldn't sleep yesterday. I kept on thinking about what was I doing in the past week. Today is good.. I can count it.. and I can sleep.. bindas. Tonight is mine...

A weird thought came to me just now.. what I really need?? Just falthu work which doesn't have any direction? no clue.. Anyways.. I have one strong desire... I need to know what makes me 'me'. I'm not talking about metaphysical reasoning.. I need a physical reasoning.. I should feel(?) it.

krishnababu

Food for brain.....

There are a couple of things I want to understand and could not get a proper direction.. Let me put them down here. May be I can write something on them at a later stage... hopefully!!

* How much time can you keep a conversation/company interesting to the other person in the absence of that "courtesy" factor in the listener? and on which factors it depends on?

* How much complicated is the thermodynamic behavior of living phases like a bacteria phase for that matter of fact human beings (bulk) ?

First one is my fight to understand.. certain things.. and the second one is to support me by saying it so complicated to understand, in case of my failure to.. understand!!

PS: I'm gone mad!!

PPS: One of the things that I'm so fascinated about is "Human brain" as whole. The way it works. By some one's grace I got one ;). I'm just throwing that one in every possible direction that I see so as to keep things exciting for me. Gosh.. there are so may things that can fascinate.. me. Have you ever tried to write a anlytical equation to track the skin surface on your face as function of deformation (movement) in the lower jaw..

A neat assignment...!!

I got a neat assignment to feed my thirst of CFD.. not using a commercial solver but to use an open source platform to build a in house tool. Fun for four months.. The most important part of this assignment is it being official. Which means I can put my official time 8 hrs per day + my time on it...

gosh.... good old days.. and I told my lead that I will take off for one month and.. will communicate back after that.. Holidays for fun!!

May be after this I can completely forget about CFD ;)

Why??

Why I consider love as a weakness?
'cas I'm afraid of being rejected.

Why I never take first step?
'cas I'm afraid of being alone. (in the crowd)

Why I can't talk properly with strangers?
Same.. afraid of doing mistakes.

I think my emotional quoefficent is not that good. I can't perform in stress. I can't perform untill and unless I'm sure of my win.

comfort zone!! I needed to be in comfort zone if I need to perform... I hate it. But thats the way I am!! Somebody has to take care of me.. everything sucks except onething... that I can perform & am performing.. :)

This explains a lot of my behaviour...

At the age of 24 yrs..

I don't smoke, I don't drink & I don't go after girls.. nope!! I do all these.. I started this not at the age of 15, 16.. but in twenties... At an age, where I know what I'm actually doing..

If somebody asks me why do you do all these.. my immediate response would be, why shouldn't I?

Anyways... let me put some peoples' argument on why you should quit smoking/drinking or what ever..

It will spoil you health..
I don't give a damn except with smoking.. where I lose my stamina which I don't like. It should never be like, I don't have enough energy to do what wanted to do.. but anyways, I don't do anything to care for my stamina/energy levels.. (jog is a good option though)

you will spoil the environment.. by smoke.
India.. how many people are envi. conscious. Forget about India, how much energy I waste for house hold purposes which adds to green house effects.. In fact I can save energy if I smoke/drink 'cas I go for sleep early. I guess the net effect would get canceled..

drunkards.. will create social problems..
I will drink in my room.. and I don't do it till I get crazy..

Social life.. ??
these are actually additions to a good(?) social life...

Family..??
I don't have any at this point, at least with me.. (my parents are so far away from me)

Just keeping all these things aside.. I really enjoy getting addicted to something.. either work or other things.

PS: I got bored of all these.. and I'm searching for a new subject(or things) now :)

Geek fun...

"This page is best viewed with your monitor switched on."

Funny.. This I found at the bottom section of Antiword opensource project's webpage. Anyways.. Antiword is a tool to read word files on any linux/unix platforms. As the author says it is a work in progress but useful at this stage. By the way it is a command line tool :)

Why I like c++??

c++ is a general purpose programming language. This every body knows.. let me show you a neat construct for looping through group of same objects..

Just write this macro.. somewhere in the header file..

#define forAll(iList, list) for(int i=0; i<>

For handling group of objects list<> and vector<> classes from STL (Standered template library) are very useful and in the above macro I assume the 'list' macro parameter is either a list<>, vector<> or any other object with .size() function which returns size in integers..

Now let us assume you a class with name Garbage is there and you want to handle group of those objects for some nonsense purpose... Now you can write a very neat code which looks like this..

vector<> Garbages;
/*
do all operations like adding and deleting.. individual Garbage object..
*/

forAll (iGarbage, Garbages) {
Garbages[iGarbage] = something...
}

looks neat no....

How can you forget...

With difficulty!!

back to work!!

Finished.. it finally!! I finished one of the outstanding issues with my current work. happies.. :). These people changed my team lead. He is very good. Anyways.. I went to him and asked him.. some feedback on me.. He told.. we need two things now.. One is human cloning and other.. time dilation..

busy...??

No.. not exactly. Things are different with me for the past week. Interesting things are happening.. thought of putting them here.. but they are beyond the scope of this blog!!

night..

I like travelling in the nights.. Today.. some girls in my office took us outside and were driving back in the night and I remember how much I like to travel in the night.

It is like an unknown terror outside.. but piercing it with your vehicle. You unknowingly enjoy the protection of your vehicle. Imagine the same place without your vehicle.. then you will understand. ;)

happenings 9/8/08

Nothing much.. Work is going smooth.. got good feed back.

And I played golf today. I guess golf is much more easy to understand. Less skill, a little bit of logic that too a small set of deductions based on common human body language that's it.

I got a club and three balls and continuing it in my apartment.

bye the way my friend commented on me saying that I live in the past more atleast 2 to 3 days ;)

Unfair..

A running race... 1000m running race.
Three people started... at different different starting points. First one at 0m, second one is at 200m and the third one is at 400m. Who will reach first? the third one.. !! yes, he did.

don't you think it is unfair.. ??

Analogous situation.. My relative.. two years younger than me. I always felt that he was somewhat good in studies compared to me. I've joined my bachelors of engineering. (my father paid my fees). He could not. 'cas his father could not pay the fee.

unfair again.. right??

Lots of kids in this world are not eligible for certain things because of their parents' place/religion/economic conditions. To exaggerate, a kid born in Africa is not eligible for certain facilities to which. say, an Indian kid had simply because he is born in Africa.

Next, a question comes!! Yes, the world is unfair. What are you doing for that except writing garbage like this? Good question but what should I do? Let me explain...

One will start helping others.. He is the giving hand making others taking hands. So.. what is the problem here..??

Do you like someone showing mercy on you?? For me the answer is I hate that to hell. Then why should I get satisfaction in doing the same to others? What makes them accept the one I can't? Totally unnatural for the normal conditions.

The world is so unfair that if forces certain people to have an unnatural/supernatural life.. ;)

PS: This is there in my mind for a long time and came out yesterday when I was talking with my friend. It is a way of supporting me for not doing anything... ;)

RGV.. again!!

"Any way to cut a long story short the point I wanted to make was that all my successes were by default and all my failures were by intent. "
- Ram Gopal Varma.

Interesting no.. I really like his way of expressing!!